Jan and I spent much of the day at Church today. We have made the decision to lay little Talia at the feet of Jesus and surrender her into His care - He knows her so well, since He created her (I believe He made her whole and complete - Trisomy 18 was something which came as a result of a world which has moved away from the Creator).
The service at Yarra Plenty Church was a very powerful one, and our friend Pastor Steve Wyndham shared our grief and sorrow with the congregation who had been praying with us for this miracle - it was a difficult thing to discuss, since none of us has the answers as to why God didn't heal Talia.
The amazing thing was that we were able to find refuge as we worshipped God and thanked Him for the time we had with our little girl. It was powerful to be able to have a place where we could praise God with a broken voice through the tears and not be concerned what people thought of us. This was our family and we weren't the only ones crying.
One of the older saints in the church shared with Steve that during the worship he had a vision of Jesus holding little Talia in His arms and rocking her to the music as we worshipped God. This means so much to us, and we can't wait to be with her again - we know we will be soon enough!
The most powerful and important thing which has comforted us is the fact the we are still Talia's parents and she will always be our little girl. Talia will live eternally (as will we) and hence it means the world to me that I am still a dad and Jan is still a mum.
The two things I would ask that people avoid saying to us are:
- "We were parents for such a short time". Talia will always be our little girl and we are her parent; and
- "Talia is now healed by being taken to heaven". This just isn't the case. Talia is complete and with Jesus, but she wasn't healed - we can live with this, since God is sovereign, but it is important to us to be real in what we say. One day we WILL understand - we just don't at the moment!
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Jan & Jeremy,
ReplyDeleteIn so many precious ways, Talia will always be a part of your (and our) family- and for eternity you will be her Mummy & Daddy- Just as a child is always "a son" or "a daughter" even when their parents pass away.
We thank you for continuing to share your grief, faith & hope with us as we continue to hold you close to our hearts and in our prayers.
Alison & Paul
It is raining as I write this - gentle and soaking. The song "Healing Rain" that we sang at our worship time in early August is running through my head and heart on some sort of auto repeat cycle.
ReplyDelete"I'm not afraid; I'm not afraid!" is the refrain.
God is here in the midst of this time, where it seems there are so many more questions than answers...and yet - that very reality is the answer.
God is here.
We are not alone;
We are not afraid. ...
Seek Him
Honour Him
He is here - with us in the place where questions abound.
Love Pam Morton
Hi Jeremy and Jan,
ReplyDeleteI have tried to share my heart in the brief poem below:
Sweet Talia -
Rain of God,
Precious baby girl
A gentle touch of love;
Soft whisper of delight:
A lingering kiss from heaven;
Precious Talia -
cherished and eagerly awaited;
the answer to many prayers -
dearly loved and treasured.
A gift beyond measure
A testimony to the power of love and life itself.
Sweet Talia -
Rain of God
Your gift to us was your life;
Your impact profound;
Your legacy immeasurable, and founded on blessing and courage;
Your destiny eternal - and sure.
A gift of love to so many
Pam Morton
Dear Jan & Jeremy,
ReplyDeleteYou will look at photos and think of the times,
Never to be forgotten and never to be replaced.
The happy times you will keep forever within.
We all react in different ways,
Whether to talk or to just want quiet,
To be with people, or the need to be alone.
Whatever your choice, remember we are here,
Offering our friendship, help and support.
Much love
Sally & David
Dearest Jan and Jeremy, it has been such an honour to uphold you in prayer. In my twenties I had a miscarriage, this was the closest I came to bearing a child, it was still very wonderful. I prayed that you would hold Talia in your arms and feel your hearts full to overflowing and so it has been. Thankyou for allowing others, to love you and your daughter too. Jennifer.
ReplyDeleteDear Jan & Jeremy,
ReplyDeleteI am SO pleased that you have had the COURAGE to Ask people what NOT to say to you ON THIS BLOG....... THAT is a HUGE thing you have done on your blog & I pray it will save you more heartache than you already have. I pray people will take note as unless they've lived loosing children; people are so very human in trying to reach out & I pray their words will bring you a little comfort. I know SCRIPTURE is the place I found comfort & seeing God's birds feeding their young ( for some reason magpie mummy's feeding their magpie babies I loved seeing God's work in HIS NATURE) helped me probably more than any words people could offer when my pain was so new.... Please know I am praying that you will KNOW YOU WILL SURVIVE THIS NIGHTMARE....You already feel terrible so I pray your friends will STILL Bring their beautiful children to he with you as I'm sure you want to rejoice in their children- Afterall you don't want their children; You want YOUR TALIA..... I pray for people to cry with you; to help calm you with their prescence & a touch if their hand/s; for people to draw you to helpful verses from OUR WORD & that you would feel Jesus' presence during this sad time..... All my love IN CHRIST, Cedar
Dear Jan & Jeremy,
ReplyDeleteWe continue to pray daily God will sustain you both in this difficult time of grief and loss. You are, and will always be the proudest parents of baby Talia.
Commitments don't allow us to be in Melbourne this week to support you with the numerous plans and adjustments BUT most importantly the celebration of the life of Talia.
As you journey together we pray you will arrive at the resting place in God having the greatest confidence and assurance........"peace that passes all understanding".
Richest love & blessings your friends,
Tolik & Lavinia Podolak