Friday, September 25

Day 19 - With Jesus

Talia went to be with Jesus this morning at 9.50am after her little heart failed.

She was peaceful throughout the night. At 9.40am she cried briefly and then stopped breathing. The medical staff gave her some oxygen but her heart rate began to slow and then stopped suddenly. The doctors were not able to revive her and she went home to be with God.

This has been the most difficult day we could have imagined and we are still processing everything. Our family and friends have been right beside us as we all wept for most of the day and held little Talia's body, hoping to see her little eyes open once again.

We cannot understand why this has happened and we are simply holding onto God, and choosing to believe that God is the same yesterday, today and forever and He is good, despite the evil and sickness which impacts each of our lives.

Tomorrow we have to make decisions about the funeral and burial, but today we have just one decision to make; Do we choose to surrender the pain, anguish and questions to God and allow Him to build something powerful in our lives? We are trying hard to do this.

But we miss you Talia so very much. We know you now have perfect health and are completely at peace with Jesus, but how can we live without you?

14 comments:

  1. Alison RiggsSeptember 25, 2009

    Dear Jan and Jeremy,

    We have all been deeply touched by your beautiful Talia. We will cherish forever the precious time we spent with her.

    Your strength and journey of faith has been inspirational to us both and although our hearts are breaking we also feel blessed by the love we can see in your lives.

    We are praying that tonight you sleep and are surrounded by God's peace & comfort.

    Our love and deepest sympathy.

    Alison & Paul

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  2. Dear Jeremy and Jan, our thoughts and prayers are with you at this time, may the peace of Jesus be with you and surround you. Love Simone Neville and Baby Joshua Mercy Nursey

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  3. Jan & Jeremy, our prayers are with you and your family at this very sad time in your lives. Thinking of you all. The Mason Family

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  4. Cedar WarrenSeptember 26, 2009

    Dear Jan & Jeremy,
    I am so utterly gutted for you & Talia that your Darling girl is not with you on Earth anymore. The PAIN in your heart & whole being is there & I can only offer a small gift of my prayers for God to sustain you both & your extended families during this heartbreaking time. Yes, you know your Darling Talia is in Heaven yet you want & deserve to have her here..... I understand your pain; I do from my own life journey. When you Are ready, remember the God heals te broken hearted..... You're all in my thoughts & prayers, Cedar Warren

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  5. Dear Jan and Jeremy,
    Our thoughts and prayers are with you both. Thank you for sharing Talia's life with us - she will not be forgotten, her life has impacted so many. May God bless you both and may you forever walk in the knowledge that you were able to show the stength, courage, beauty, determination and love that was within a little girl that the world thought was worthless. Your faith and perseverance has showed everyone the worth and preciousness inherent in every single life. We pray that you find comfort and rest in the arms of your loving Father.
    Nathan and Sharlie Flannery

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  6. Dear Jeremy and Janette,
    Words don't seem enough in the really tough moments in life such as you are having together now, our words anyway. But God's word is sure. He tells us in Revelation 21 3-5...
    Look, God's dwelling place is now among the people and He will dwell with them. They will be his people and God Himself will be with them, and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. He who was seted on the throne said, "I am making everything new!"

    Talia, your precious little gift is now very safely held in the arms of Jesus and she has no more pain, no more frustration, and is now fully healed. Keep looking to Jesus for your strength as you travel through the inevitable pain of the coming days. He will be your strength.

    With all our love, Rod and Joy Draper

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  7. Cathie NowakSeptember 26, 2009

    Dear Jan & Jeremy,

    I was so profoundly sad to hear little Talia had passed away, the agony in your hearts must be overwhelming.

    Thank you so much for the privelege of allowing us to share her journey with you, her short life on earth has had an immense impact on many people's lives, and I know there are many wonderful memories and blessings you can cling to and treasure in the days and years to come.

    I believe your prayers for her healing have indeed been answered, in God's perfect wisdom she is beside him now, complete and whole as He intended.

    May God sustain and support you in the pain to come as you move forward into his peace, and as you build the honour of knowing and cherishing Talia into the fabric of your lives.

    much love, and thank you again, Cathie

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  8. For Talia
    We were there! At the Mercy Hospital on Monday, September 7th at 1.29 p.m. What a privilege it was when your Daddy came to tell us that you had arrived. A beautiful daughter for our precious Jeremy & Jan, and a long awaited grandchild for us.

    Our love for you had blossomed from the moment we knew that God was ‘ knitting you together’ in your mother’s womb.
    Each day we prayed for every little part of you – your eyes, your ears, your sweet little nose and
    your tiny rosebud lips; your arms and legs, fingers and toes.

    When you arrived you were perfect and our hearts were bursting
    with love and thanksgiving.
    Our Heavenly Father has you in His care now, but we say thank you God,
    for a beautiful little miracle grand-daughter.
    Such a short time here on this earth, but forever
    in our hearts.

    Nanny & Pa (Ellis)

    “Jesus loves you this I know,
    For the Bible tells me so.
    Little ones to Him belong,”

    ……Yes Jesus loves you
    And holds you in His arms.

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  9. Beloved Jeremy and Jan,

    Your news has deeply, deeply saddened me. And together with all your brothers and sisters I am holding your hearts and minds up before the Lord, that He may protect you from being overwhelmed to the point of hopelessness and bitterness. That you will be protected from questions that are only coming at you from one source who is out to make his final kill: rob you of your faith in your God, Whom you can not understand at all. No one can. But He doesn't ask from us that we understand Him. Only that we trust Him - no matter what. And that is my prayer for you, while I know that it is your own longing as well: that you will keep the faith. Right now this is the most complete kind of faith we can ever hope to produce: to trust without seeing. A blindly trusting - no nice answers at this moment - and maybe never. But He IS with you. When you can't pray - just remember that we are praying. May you and all your loved ones who are so heart broken be comforted by Him, Who is a shield around you, when it is impossible for you to hold up your shield of faith to extinguish the fiery darts from the enemy of our souls. He is the lifter of your head, saying:
    "Jan, my dearly loved girl: I am looking at you still, even now, with My loving eyes - you WILL get through this. And you Jeremy, my faithful trusting son, I am so proud of you, as with all your heart and constant fervor you have proclaimed your hope and faith in Me. So now, in this darkest moment of your journey with Me, when it seems that I have done nothing, have let you down - do not lose heart. Send every thought of doubt away. You can. And I know you want to. So just keep plodding on, even while the road seems so dark and the mist is too thick to see the flowers in the grass at the side of the road to cheer you up, to remind you that there are still good things happening: they are there, although you cannot see them at the moment. And one day the mist will get thinner and eventually it will disappear completely. The sun will break through again, to warm you, to show you the newness of your faith which was changed and deepened in the darkness. But for now, may you rest in the arms of those around you, both of you. Let yourself be carried till you can walk again. For I am with you. And remember: I was with you every step of the way and will be, forever. You have seen it. Heard it.
    Remember too that you were told that this would test your faith and at the same time show it as well - for all to see. But no one knew that it would become this horribly painful, breaking your heart. But it will not break your faith. This is testing your faith in Me to the limit - you may think it is actually beyond your limit. And you are right. It is. And that is where you will find me. For nothing is beyond Me. I Myself am upholding you. Come and rest in My arms. Scream, cry and pummel my chest in your anguish - till you are exhausted and let me soothe you. Heal you. Give you peace. For that day will come. Receive my peace. For I am your God. The choice is yours."
    Jeremy and Jan, and family:
    I have been praying for you ever since I read the news that your treasure has left this earth, left your arms, as the fullness of the number of times that you would hold her was reached. This is the hardest thing which you (and all of us) always hoped would never happen. BUT the Lord's eyes are on you still, to powerfully help you in this dark time of need - the One who gave you your faith will help you keep it.
    With all my love and prayers, Corrie.

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  10. Gabriel NorrisSeptember 26, 2009

    Dear Jan and Jeremy,

    I am so sorry to hear that you have been parted from your precious little girl temporarily (Praise God for eternity and that one day you will have the chance to spend the rest of time getting to know her more :)

    It has been an honour to have been allowed a window into this part of your journey.

    Please do not feel that you need to stop writing now that Talia's earthly journey is over. I would feel priviledged to read as you process your grief, if it would be helpful.

    Continuing with you in prayer.

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  11. Robbie & Juzzy BonannoSeptember 27, 2009

    Hi Jeremy & Jan,

    We are in Ireland and just read the comments and discovered that your little baby has gone to be with the Lord. We pray for God's strength and peace as you shed your tears of sadness. But know one day she will greet you in heaven and you will be together forever.
    Our prayers and thoughts are with you. Love from Juzzy & Robbie Bonanno

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  12. Juliette KeatingSeptember 27, 2009

    Dear Jan & Jeremy, It has been a privilege to share this journey with you - thank you for taking the time to open your hearts to so many. Praise God for the blessing that Talia has been to you both, to your family, friends, and for the blessings that have flowed to so many others - both known and unknown to you. Your uncompromising faith has been a shining light and an incredible witness. I know that our awesome God will continue to hold you all in the palm of His Hand as you walk this path as He says in Jeremiah...."For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to give you hope and a future...". I have felt your pain so deeply this last week and prayed for you all. I will continue to hold you all in my thoughts and prayer. Blessings, Juliette Keating

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  13. Sheridan PoverSeptember 27, 2009

    Dearest Jeremy and Jan, I can hardly see the keys for crying. What an emotional rollercoaster. My heart is breaking for you. The pain is so real but the reassurance that your little girl is safe and whole in the arms of Jesus is just enough to carry you through the agony of your precious loss. "God protect and provide comfort to this precious family during this terribly sad time. Tell Talia that we love her very much and can't wait to cuddle her one day when we are all made whole and perfect in your presence Lord." I love the words to the song we're singing at church at the moment "No weeping, no hurt or pain, You hold me now. No darkness, no sick or lame, You hold me now." Talking about eternity with our beautiful saviour. Know that He is carrying you both through this time. Much love and prayer, Damien, Sheridan, Ruby and Sophie pover

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  14. Dear Jan & Jeremy
    Please accept our deepest sympathy and prayers for your grief and loss of beautiful little angel Talia. What a blessing she has been to your family and has enriched your lives forever. Resting in peace and surrounded by your love in Heaven she will be always with you.
    With love

    Jill & Harrison (friends of Alison & Paul)

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