We can finally look more closely at her and Jan spent some time doing "Kangeroo Care" with Talia on her bare skin. This was extremely emotional and both of us are only just understanding that Talia is our little girl and a part of us. The last 9 months have been unreal (in the negative sense) and now reality is hitting us - we are really a mum and dad and Talia is our special gift to cherish, no matter how many issues she has.
Why did God choose us to look after her, when we are so inadequate? It can only be to bring Him glory, since without being held in His hands, we have nothing to offer this tiny little girl. How can we learn so much about love in just one day?
Jan may have let go and bonded with Talia, but I need help to let go and give everything to our baby, no matter how beautiful she is. We are very fortunate that Talia has no real external issues to deal with, although there are some serious issues internally. She is truly gorgeous and I am terrified of giving in to her!
It is amazing to see that every time we are struggling, exactly the right person comes in to spend time with us and Talia. We have so many wonderful supporters (some of who may add some entries to this blog!) who are praying with us and Talia - we will not give up on seeing God bring about her healing and will hold on as tightly as possible to Him.
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